想飛 I WANT TO FLY

I feel really uncomfortable for creating the first enemy in my life. This is really not me. Even though I've been negotiating for my clients and threatening their opponents as my career (actually I don't really need to shoot any oral threats to the clients' opponents; all I need to do is to serve a complaint to them), I feel uneasy to deal with a conflicting situation for myself. I don't know how to face the enemy once negotiation has failed and conversation turned hostile. Do you just ignore the enemy and turn your head away once you run into your enemy on the street? The thing that I can't settle the most is that I don't know how to face myself for being evil and doing something irrational, while ignoring the most important things in my life. Now I feel very silly and ashamed for trying to develop a strategy to make things even the whole night tonight. I just hope the work will come up soon and distract me from thinking about this mess.